apocalyptic weirdness

So as I sit here typing, freshly washed and bathed, face mask on and nail varnish drying, I can’t help but feel weird. Coronavirus is obviously really serious but it’s really tough to stay isolated and in your own home.

Today I should have been off to France for eight days, and it’s heart-wrenching that I’m not. I feel like I’ve been gutted like a fish.

I thought I’d try to take my mind off it by booking a spa day, but today that is now cancelled too. My patience is now really being tested and it’s start to get to me.

I’m on day four of “quarantine” and I’ve already had enough. There I was thinking I was resilient and ready to handle anything. But this is all a bit too much.

Now that bars, restaurants, pubs and shops are closing, I think we’re going to find it even harder. Of course I’m glad for the extra time en famille, but we’ll be ready to kill each other in a few days time.

I want to read more during this period, although I’ll still be working. I follow someone on Instagram who reviews books, and I’m going to take some recommendations and start from there. I do have Madonna in a Fur Coat by Sabattan Ali to finish, and I want to get through A Gentleman in Moscow too – the description in that is beautiful.

I’m going to have to find a way to differentiate weekends from weekdays. Obviously I won’t be working, but I can tell already it’s going to be odd having too days of doing nothing. My Saturdays usually consist of coffee and shopping, now replaced by homemade coffee and blogging and sorting out my wardrobe. My Sundays are usually filled with church and family, but church is cancelled and my grandparents on both sides are all over 70 so are self-isolating until told otherwise. I’ll probably replace my usual worship with online ones from both St Thomas’ and Kings Church, but it’s going to be tough sticking to that and making a habit out of it. I guess I should find my bible too and get reading it because its something I really need to do more of. Maybe I’ll dedicate my Sunday afternoons and evenings to reading so I can actually get through that list.

As some of you may know, I have been trying to write more fiction lately. Hopefully in these uncertain times, I’ll be able to put my boredom aside and write up some wonderful waffle. If you have any inspiring stories, or photos that may spark my imagination for scenes and characters, please do drop me a message! Preferably on Instagram @ku_layrosas.

Am I the only one feeling like this is slightly apocalyptic?

I am enjoying more time with my parents to be honest. Both my mum and I are working from home, and my dad does shifts so he’s home at lunchtime. It’s nice to have lunch together, and coffees together and watch the brillant Baghdad Central together on catchup.

I’m going to spend my work breaks getting back outside into my beautiful surroundings. There’s so much space and now everything is lush and green again since spring has sprung, I’m in need of some fresh air. Someone from my village shared their photos of the sunset the other night and I can’t not share them. True beauty, how lucky I am to live in such a place.

I will sign off for now, and spend my afternoon cuddled up on the sofa alone as my dad takes the armchair and my mum the other sofa – yep, that’s the Mather form of social distancing.

I wish you all peace and joy, and I’m praying for you. Know that you’re loved and remain faithful in this testing time.



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